Boots + Resume of fall semester

So, I got something of a revelation today morning. Boots. I need a pair of boots. Dark brown, matte boots would be perfect to almost everything. Imagine a pair of knee high boots with a pair of beaten skinny jeans and a white knitted sweater... PERFECT! I think I would use them a lot, but I don't think that I will get a pair sometime soon, because I've just gotten a pair of pretty expensive uggs - and I love them. Right now I just really have a craving for those boots.
And, by the way... I am finished with the fall semester now! Yay! I think this school semester have been amazing and it has gone by so fast. I really like it there, and I feel like a fish in water if you know what I mean. I have come very far with myself too - I am a lot more confident now. I have come far with my health and fitness as well, I started the Kayla Itsines Bikini Body Training Guide 2 months ago. At first I wanted everyone to like me, but now I'm very relaxed I can say without lying that I DO NOT CARE WHAT EVERYONE THINK OF ME. I think the key is to learn to stop worrying, thinking like: "Well, if they don't like me, they're not worth my time thinking of them. I can focus on the good things in my life instead and the people that actually do like me." Because I mean, if someone is mean or ignores you, why would you try to make them like you? It's their choice and they are missing out. Don't waste your time on those people, you have other things more important and good to think about.
Okay, I have to go!
XOXO
Arlette

My New Year Resolutions

Hello darls!
It. Is. So. Good. To. Be. BACK!! After a weekend of rest, in both the social and active fronts I am now very much refreshed and happy. Just finished one of the workouts I missed, and I feel so good. Really hate slacking after with training.
The schoolday was fun, nothing special, but as you may know, I just really like my school. Much better than my old.
But that wasn't what I was going to write about;
I am going to write about my New Year Resolutions. I haven't had so many 'serious' kinds of stuff, only like I will not eat candy and I will get 150 dollars for it (from my mum and dad). But, I think I will make a few real this year..

• I will keep on with this healthy lifestyle.
• DEFINITELY continue the BBTG 1.0 and then purchase 2.0. I really like this guide.
• Not being so much on a screen - I sit with a screen maybe 4 hours a day, so I'll try to get it down to around 2 hours a day instead. 
• Not to look in the mirror so often (haha I know it's silly, but I do it way too often)        

I think 2014 has been a good year and I think that I have come a lot more far with my confidence this year. 

Soon I'll write a 2014 Resume for you, where I tell you what has happened this year and what I have achieved<3

Love

Arlette 

Dream Trips

OMG.
Right now when I look outside at the rainy, gray, boring and cold weather I can't help but dream about somewhere else. Like Dubai, Australia, Caribbean... Just somewhere with paradise beaches and amazing small beach cottages and fresh fruit! In February me and my lovely family will go to the Canary Island, Gran Canaria. I've been there before and it's bloody fabulous. I would say that Dubai (we went there last year) has better beaches - with literarily white sand and crystal clear-turqoise water. But, Maspalomas (that's the town we'll live in) will be super nice and I hope we will have a great time.
When it isn't snowing here, it's pretty boring weather. It's barely no sun and it's dark and cold. Of course I want to stay here and be traditional and celebrate christmas and my b-day here, but imagine how nice to just go somewhere for new year<3 That would be something! Today I figured out the perfect wish: I want to decide the next family-trip destination. I would probably choose Australia, because I've never been there and it seems A M A Z I N G. It's definitely on of my dream destinations and I have dreamed of going there for so long now! Buuut, since the time difference is so big you have to be there at least 2.5 weeks for it to be worth it. I mean, it takes about half a week for the body to get used to the time zone and you have to turn the whole day around. Which means that if you want to go when it's summer in Austraila - I want to - you need to take at least 1 week off from school. It's all very complicated and it's expensive.
I guess that trip will wait a while!
XOXO

What's Happening to Me?

Update? Well, yeah, still sick. I haven't been doing so much today. Woke up at 12 and went down, made some oatmeal and an egg. Ate that, checked through social media and tried my voice - which for the record isn't working so great. Crawled down in the sofa and there I've been lying the whole day. I haven't had much of an appetite and my parents are getting worried.
Sometimes it hurts, I see for myself how much I have changed. And sometimes I miss my old self, knowing that I can never go back to that person. My dad says I don't eat properly, which I think I do. I take one portion and then I feel full. That's it. I don't starve myself and I don't overeat, okay? I've told you before that I have always loved food and that I used to overeat, that's why my parents find it so strange when I don't eat so much food. "You are still growing, you have to eat more" mum and dad say, but what about my little sister that never eat properly? Yeah, they are used to her not eating, but not used to me eating smaller portions. But I eat when I when I feel like it, and I eat when I'm hungry. I don't skip eating. I eat when I'm hungry.
But. I am afraid of how much I have changed. I look at the mirror all the time, looking at my things, stomach, arms. I don't know. What's happening? What am I doing? Why? It's hard to explain why I feel this.. Is it just nostalgia?
Well, sometime I guess I will find out. Right now I just need to stop looking in the mirror so much and not think about how much I eat.

See you XOXO
Arlette

Christmas shopping

Hello darlings!
Sorry for being off the blog for this week, I just can't fit it in sometimes.. I'm trying to write posts as often as I can and sometimes it isn't even daily unfortantley. But, I actually do this for me; so I can write my thoughts down and feel better about myself haha.
I've been sick for three days (stayed home on Thursday, felt like crap on Friday but went to school anyway) and I haven't been able to workout. I've got a cold, so it's just a lot of coughing and a lost voice. It's getting better and I am hoping to be able to workout tomorrow; better late than never.
Me and my cousin aka best friend shopped some christmas presents and I feel really happy with the ones I have bought. I have two DIY things I need to do, both of them are frames with photos with me and my friends. But I don't like that christmas present pressure that's between me and one of my friends - she gets money for buying presents and buy pretty expensive kinds while I don't get money and have to pay all of the christmas (and birthday) presents on my own. The thing is that she is a bit immature and doesn't really get happy when she gets something thoughtful but not very expensive.
It's really irritating but I think to next year I will discuss a maximum price for presents.

Here's my wish list:

Workout earbuds

Presentcards on clothing shops for example

Money for trip to NY

Workout clothes

Medicine ball 2 - 3 kg

Gymstick

Juice Maker

Benefit Mascara They're Real

Elf The Movie

Too Faced Chocolate Bar Eye Palette

Anastasia Brow Wiz

My Weekend

Happy 2nd advent guys!
I've had a very nice and chill Sunday and spending some quality time with my mom. A lot of shopping this weekend hah! The Friday-night was spended over at my best friend's house, we were watching The Maze Runner - bet you have heard of it - about a group of people that get trapped in a kind of labyrinth.. Pretty good movie and I didn't really find it that scary, which is positive. We fell asleep around 12, so not that late.
The day after me and my friend - that by the way had a cold - went to the city; took a starbucks latte, ate on T.G.I Fridays, went ice skating and of course shopping christmas presents. Super fun, cozy and christmasy. The thing was that both of us were - we still are, but she's in her house and I'm in mine - ill and quite tired after the busy Saturday. Still we decided to go to my place, make some wholewheat baguettes with mozzarella, tomatoes and spinach. That was the way last night was spended; infront of the tv, watching elf and drinking tea and eating the baguettes. I think we both were a bit tired of the other person and just tired. And ill. The night turned out pretty well - even though we were a bit moody and my little sis wanted to be with us the whole time - but I think we could have had even more fun if we both were a bit more cheerful.
This morning my friend almost went home instantly because of the cold. I had some quark and a smoothie for breakfast, and then I've drunk a smoothie and eaten a quest bar. Why haven't eaten so much is because my family and I are go to a Christmas Buffé that a very fancy hotel is hosting. I usually don't like the dishes on there, but it's a nice event.
Okay, I'll talk to you again later!
XOXO

Soulmate..?

I feel like I'm waiting for someone perfect, no matter if that person will be my future boyfriend or if it'll be my future best friend. I don't care. I just want to have someone that will stand up for me ALL the time, that I have fun with, that I can trust in any circumstances and that understands me. A soulmate, that I can do everything with. But I don't know if I found one yet, but I so badly want to. One of my friends I can trust will stand up for me and have fun with. Another one I know I can trust and I know that she will never leave me, but I don't have so fun with her. One I don't hang out with so much, and I don't am as close with her as I am with the others. The fourth one don't go to the same school as me. The fifth I have only known for 4 months, and she's got a few other friend I think she is with rather than me.

I don't feel alone, I know I have my friends. I love them, but I want someone that really completes me. Maybe a boyfriend. Maybe a friend. I just want someone. Still, I don't know if I'll ever find someone so perfect. Can you? I don't know, and it is pretty damn frustrating. 

Someone I can be myself around, someone that can't wait to be with me, someone who is trustworthy, someone I don't get tired of being with. 

Have I already find that friend? Maybe I have, someone I've known since first grade, when I think of it. But she leaves me out when we are with another friend. 

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Hi! I'm back, haven't been able to update.. Sorry! I hope it'll be better now. I just wanted to write my feelings down. It feels so much better after. 

I love you<3

The Thing That's So Great About Life

Today I was, and am, so tired. The day felt sooo long, and I just shouldn't wait to go home. So when I got home I made my way to my room, put on some workout clothes and did the Bikini Body Guide week 5 - arms and abs. I haven't felt that I been having any process on the workout front (looking at my body) because I feel like I have been eating unhealthy. Which I haven't really done, but I just don't feel motivated.. It feels like I am not going to get any process, and I'm not going to get abs and..

But, I keep going, you don't always have to have motivation to do something. The most important thing is to KEEP GOING - if you do you are going to reach your goal. We are all human, and we all sometimes do something that's not planned and not on the right track, but you just have to get back on track. Life isn't one straight line, it's a curve with very many high moments and also very low moments. 

I mean,  you could screw up your whole life, but I think that someday you'll somehow get up from it. Always. Sometimes you just don't have the power to drag yourself up, but there are people who are willing to help you. Some of the work you have to do yourself, but people can help you.

Look at it as you are stuck in a deep pit, and someone throws down a latter to you. That someone can't make you climb the latter - you are the only one who can get yourself up again. So, thanks to the person throwing down the latter you have the opportunity to get up, but you are the only one who can make the climbing happen. You have to co-operate. 

It's almost the same with the training, you sometimes have to find people or things that can help you get up, dress up and workout. And sometimes, you are super motivated and love life. Life is a curve, with both up and downs. Imagine how boring it would be without those curves.

Love<3

Christmas Unhealthy..

I know I talk a lot about winter and Christmas, but that's just because I really can't wait for Christmas! Actually I can't wait 'til it's December, I just looove that month. It's getting darker outside - when I wake up it's pretty dark, and when I come home it's pretty dark as well. I think it's lovely with the weather getting cold and me getting that tired feeling - that I think is super-cozy - when you get home. Christmas is really my favorite time of the year, because that's when you get quality time with your family and I feel the best when I get to be with them.
I think that when it comes to December, you could actually allow yourself to have a few cheat meals. For example when it's advent and you eat ginger bread and other christmasy things, then you can have some ginger bread, with hot chocolate if that's served as well. Like one or two every week, because I think you should enjoy christmas - I mean, it only happens once a year.
I guess I'm not going to get as much progress on the fitness side during December, but I honestly don't care if I eat a bit unhealthy, like gingerbreads and saffron buns. Still, on the "food side" I'll try to eat normally - healthy, wholeweat, a lot of vegetables, small portion sizes but many meals - but when it comes to the sugar I'll eat some of that (haha).
My rule will be that I'll eat max three unhealthy snacks, and if there's a healthier option I'll take that one. I guess it'll be when I am with friends and family I'll eat a bit unhealthy haha. BUT, it can only be christmasy-things, such as gingerbread and cinnamon stuff.

The Ulimate Sunday!

I woke up at 12 today, really good feeling. To know that I still have the whole day able to do whatever I want, I love that feeling. So, what I did was first doing the most amazing pancakes - oatmeal, banana and eggs - and served them with an orange, blueberries and water. Yum! Then, I just chilled, talked with my sister and parents, and slowly getting ready.

The whole family decided to take a walk, so we "climbed" a skiing-hill and let me tell you, that was quite the cardio! Then my mom walked home, but me, my dad and my little sis walked to the gym and I did some butt-training and back training as well. I didn't do a very hard workout, but it's better than nothing, right?

Now were home, and we're just starting to do gingerbreads - gosh, christmas feelings!!! Wow, and then of course, we gotta taste a few. Oh my god, I am so in love with this time of the year. I am pretty tired by now, and this have been the perfect Sunday! Tomorrow is the beginning of the last week of November, and next Monday it's December which means I get to open my Benefit-calendar. I am so happy right now!

Kiss<3

PS! Posting before and after pics from week 1 to 4 (kayla itsines bikini body guide) tomorrow on my instagram, @arletteorlande!

Old times..

To be honest, I never liked when my mom made smoothies, or when grandma served frozen and then unfrozen raspberries with ice cream. I just didn't like frozen fruit; it didn't taste like ordinary fruit, it just tasted.. weird. Frozen fruit is so much cheaper, so my parents always bought frozen fruit (when it came to berries, but not apples or bananas because they were and still are pretty cheap fresh). Which meant, I much more preferred hot chocolate and other unhealthy stuff. I remember one time, when me and my best friend made a smoothie; we had like 1/2 cup of sugar, in that smoothie. Yaay, healthy..
Back then, I didn't know (or care) what was healthy, what contained sugar, what was unhealthy. Sometimes I want to go back to that, not caring about that and not get guilt feelings (which I know I shouldn't get) after eating an ice cream. The reason to I don't do it is because I feel so much better now. I feel more energized and I am a lot more confident. I also know that I can't go back to where I were before; the knowing of the sugar and chemicals will always be there. Maybe it's good, being very educated - if you should put a positive word on it - but I mean, I'm only 14; I should enjoy eating whatever I want. The thing is that, I do feel a lot more better in my own skin, and I do look better (healthier) but I still don't feel completely happy with my body. Hopefully, when I have completed this program, I will feel even better and maybe not get guilt feelings if I eat an ice cream. Because then I know my body won't be affected of that little ice cream.
Right now, I don't have cheat meals, because I feel like if I eat one, I suddenly eat another one, and it doesn't work for me with that cheat meal.
Back to the start about smoothies; now I LOVE smoothies and frozen fruit, it's the best thing in the world. I am so proud how long I have come from being a bit overweight, eating unhealthy, being self conscious all the time to love myself, working out every day, eating healthy. And I want to keep going on this journey!
See you tomorrow<3
Love

Benefit Advent Calendar

Guess what I got from my mom yesterday!? A BENEFIT ADVENT CALENDAR!! I am so happy, I just love Benefit. I've had a few of their stuff and I adore their makeup, though it is very expensive. And then my amazing mom came home and basically gave me 24 mini-benefit things, sounds good, doesn't it?

I have always been beauty and makeup interested; watched videos on YouTube, done my own makeup (sometimes very.. unbeautiful), bought a ton of makeup and things like that. I love taking care of my body,with workouts and healthy eating, but also washing, hydrating my skin and doing facial masks as well as hair masks. Benefit has been like one of those brands that you really really want, and their stuff is amazing, and what a dream it would be if you got that Advent Calendar! Actually me and my friends talked about the Calendar, saying it only was for sale in the US; no one thinking anyone of us would get it. Hehehe.. I got it :D 

Now I just can't wait for 1st of December to come!! I have been longing for it the whole year haha, christmas (the whole December-month actually) is my favorite time of the year I think. I love being with my family, counting down to the big day, dressing the Xmas tree... It's all so cozy, and beautiful and GAAH! Now it will be even more fun coz I got my beautifully adorable calendar that will make me super hot with all the makeup.

And now it just hit me that I have to clean out my makeup to get room for the Benefit-things...

Love you<3

XOXOXOXOXOX

Non-workout 4 days...

Hello beautiful readers!
I haven't been able to update since my dear computer disappeared, but now it's back. And then I'm back as well! So, what has been going on then? Well, I did have a TERRIBLE headache Wednesday and Thursday, so I stayed home those two days from school. Though I worked out for week three Wednesday. On Friday I felt better, so I went to school, had fun, but then we just poof went to our pretty boring, but cozy, non-WiFi country house. Which meant that I could not do the workout of week three; full body workout. I got really upset and I couldn't do the training session Saturday either, we were still in our little cottage (where the shower cabin is really gross).
We got home from the country house for about two hours ago, and I have been selling christmas flowers and cookies to my class' London trip in 9th grade.
Right now, I am so tired and I DON'T want to workout. And, I have been walking a lot (walked for 1,5 h yesterday, and I almost ran to school and back on Friday). I don't know, should I skip this workout session? I am anyway going to workout tomorrow.. One skipped workout wouldn't bring down my whole results, right? I think I'll skip it actually. Sometimes you can just cool down, lying on the couch watching the latest episode of The Vampire Diaries and still feel good about yourself. One time is no time. But, the rest of the weeks I am going to WORK MY ASS OFF. Hell yeah. So, today I can chill, but then.. :)
Okay, see you later!
Love ya<3

She's Holding Me Back

I don't know what I think of the new girl. Everyone is like "wow, she's really nice" and blah blah. She isn't bitchy, but I don't know. I somehow got the impression she didn't want to talk to me. Meeting new people is like my favorite thing in the world, I think it is so fun.

Actually I think that my "best friend" that I feel is hanging after me too much scared the new girl of. My best friend, Polly, is super nice, but she's not so good in social situations with others.. She always says the most awkward things. Actually Polly is really cool, once you get to know her, but she tries too much. And I'm kind of stuck with her (I have been for 7 years). In the new school she hasn't gotten real new friends as I would say I have.

I am her only friend (and the few others from our new school) and she's hanging after me. This was what I wanted to avoid, not being like a pair with her. Because we where like the ones that always hanged with each other; "Yeah, there's Arelette & Polly, they never are with others". I HATE IT! I get so frustrated, I don't feel like I live my school life because of her. I could really have made a lot of friends -don't get me wrong, everyone in the new class is my friends, but not super-close friends to me- but Polly's holding me back. Because she is so socially awkward I think people gets the idea of me being that as well. But what should I do? 

Polly had somewhat of a "breakdown" where she started crying (I comforted) and she said that no one wants to be with her and things like that. You know what I thought? "Yeah, that's true." I may sound like an awful friend, but I try to be as good as I can. I would want to have myself as a friend. I hate making people sad and I hate fighting. 

Gaaah, I just get so frustrated!

Hope it will get better. Love<3

Instagram

Good morning darlings!

I'm sorry I didn't update yesterday, but I'm on palace that doesn't have any internet.. :( So, this weekend I won't be able to update very often, but on my instagram I try to update everyday, so if you notice I don't have posted anything on my blog, there's usually an update there. Mostly because it's easier to update there. I'll try to update a better post soon!

Love<3

instagram: @arletteorlande 

Water

I bet you've heard that water is SUPER important and that you should drink it all the time. And I've always thought that I drink when I am thirsty, period. Plus I have always been a fan of milk, I would drink milk all the time instead of water. But then I saw that a lot of fitness gurus and just fitness intresded people had replaced milk with Almond or Oat milk. So I tried that. I didn't like any of them that much, so I just used them in smoothies. You could say that I put myself on a milk interdiction. Instead of drinking the nut milk I drank water, not all the time, but I didn't drink anything but water (and smoothies.)

Then, a week ago, I drank a glass of milk. And you know what? I didn't like the taste, it wasn't amazing or anything. So, now, I basically don't drink milk at all. Sure, if we don't have nut milk or anything at home I have milk in my smoothies, but I don't drink plain milk. Milk is filled with calcium, which is good because you need calcium, but it isn't nessecary to drink milk every day. I do eat dairy, like greek yogurt (which contains protein and taste amazing.) I am completly fine with my beloved water, which make my skin look better and myself feeling better. Smoothies are amazing for your health as well, and fruit juices are completly natrual, so those two I drink sometimes as well.

But, don't forget that you don't ALWAYS have to eat healthy, eat that burger if yo crave that (not every week, but just.. Yeah ya know what I mean.) 80% healthy and nutritiuos, 20% whatever you want. For me, I do enjoy eating healthy more than eating french fries.

Love <3

A lot of friends?

What is the definition of a friend? I mean, is it when you talk sometimes and meet everyday or is it when you hang out after school and in school? Really, what is a friend. A best friend for me is someone you trust, but I don't think you have to trust someone to be friends. Because if it is the first alternative, well, yeah, then I have like a lot of friends. But if it's the other alternative, then I have 5 or 6 friends haha.
But does that really matter? I think I'd rather have a few close friends than a lot of friends that talks with me only sometimes. Before I started this school I dreamed of having super duper lots of new friends, but I have realized that I don't need that. I need my closest friends, and then of course a few others, just to feel good and not alone. I would say that at least all of the girls in my class are my friends. I guess we have builded like gangs we are with, I usually hang with my closest friends and others hang with others. I guess that's quite normal. Of course everybody talks with everybody, but we still have our small gangs. Still, sometimes I feel like an outsider. For example today, I sat at a table (in maths class) with P and H we'll call them, both girls. And it was a guy called C as well at our table. And we worked individually, but P and H helped each other (they're not really from the same gang) with stuff, but I had to ask my best friend at the table next to our table. I guess that is a quite small thing, but still it is a bit annoying you could say.
I'll see you tomorrow!
Love<3

Fall Fashion

I must say, the military gray wasn't my thing until this fall. I didn't like it at all, but now.. I love it! Especially with something wine-red, if you ask me it is the best combination this fall. And who doesn't love UGGs? Well I now I am truly, madly deeply in love with them anyways. My mom is in New York (she's working) and I have PLENTY of stuff I want from there, for example a pair of UGGs and a military green jacket.
I used to think that autumn wasn't fun or cozy at all, only waiting for the holidays and christmas. Well, this year I just SO love autumn and that is very much thanks to the fashion. And hot chocolate;) Now I can't wait for winter and dressing myself with a lot of outerwear, nice and cozy shoes and sweater. I really need more sweater, knitted ones, not those thick and hooded sweaters.
So here are a alternative for an amazing fall-outfit!
Love xx. Arlette

Raspberries, strawberries and pomegranate

Wow. That was a hard workout, and I'm only on week 2! First thing I did when I got home was to put on some workout clothes and put up the Kayla Itsines Bikini Body Guide week 2. I was absolutely NOT feeling for a workout, but I have a (for the first time in my life, working) schedule so today was leg day. After the workout I think I spent 10 minutes on the floor before I had energy enough to get up and shower haha. I am soo proud I made it through the WHOLE workout, not resting until the circuit was done.
I felt quite light headed even after I showered and wasn't feeling for eating anything. But, you know I  have to get some energy after a killer workout like that. The only thing I felt like having was a raspberry-smoothie. I had a very "mature" pomegranate so the first thing I did was mix the pomegranate seeds. Then I put in some frozen rasp and strawberries. I try to stay away from milk as much as I can but I put in a bit of milk and greek yogurt too because it wasn't enough liquid.
Aaand BAM! There you have the most amazing, full of vitamins, antioxidants and the most delicious smoothie ever. It is quite filling and a bit energy giving (before the smoothie I was almost falling asleep.)
Okay, I'll hear from you tomorrow!
Love<3
 PS. Picture on my instagram @arletteorlande

Make Someone Happy❤

I've thought about something. Sometimes you can over exaggerate, like if you just gotten to know someone and then start texting; "I love you" "I miss you" "Can't wait for meeting you tomorrow" "Want to do something tomorrow.. and next day? and next day?"
You get what I mean ( I hope) and I've done it multiple times. After I've done something like that, I feel a bit awkward and embarrassed. The things that crosses my mind is "oh no, am I too much?" "maybe I am too pushing?" "they might think I'm kind of a stalker.." Haha, sounds kind of funny, but I can totally feel that sometimes.
But think about this: when someone texts you "I love you"- no matter if you just have gotten to know them or if you've known them your whole life - you get a smile on your face, right? My thought is that the ones that you've send the message to, also get a smile on their faces. I believe that everyone gets happy by being told something nice - wether it's a hug, a loving message or something caring and loving. We humans needs love, we need proximity and we feel good when we do something good.
If I get a message; "I love you, you are so fun to be with. I feel like I can trust you, though we've only have known each other in two weeks. You are beautiful, inside and out." I would be very happy, boot creeped or anything like that. So why would the one that I send one of those messages to be creeped? I think that the person would be just as happy as I would be. Make someone happy, love bomb them with things like this, I promise, they will be happy!❤

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On my mind today..

I keep believing that it's Sunday, so tomorrow is Monday. But it's not! Which is good because I need one (or 7) day more before school starts again. It's like I barely can't imagine what it'll be like on Monday haha. I don't know how it will be but I hope and think it'll be fun, like it usually is. One of the girls, whom I feel I've come closest to, have been gone for 2 weeks and she's coming back now. I think it will be great to have her back. But, I keep remembering one of the pictures when she's sitting with all the other girls, me not with them. Luckily, I am part of the girl-gang so I'm just as in as she is. Now it probably sounds like I am competing with her, which I absolutely don't, just afraid of losing her :)
When I think about it I am going to ask her if she wants to do something tomorrow, I think that will make me loosen up a bit. Another friend, the one who I went trick or treating with, asked if I wanted to do something. I'm not so sure about it, I want to do something with a new friend, you know? I want to get to know the new ones more!

You want to know another fun thing?
I BOUGHT TICKETS TO THE ONE DIRECTION CONSERT TODAY! FRONT ROW!
I have been to three 1D conserts, one last year and two this year. And 2015, I am going to my first 5SOS consert plus a One Direction consert. I am sooo excited! The three nights I've been to the conserts has been three of the most amazing moments of my life.
I love them so much, but I don't know them. I dream of marrying one of them, but I first of all have to keep it real and also as I said I don't know them. But I so badly want to! And, it doesn't cost anything to dream. As the optimist I am, I can't help but think that I will.
I hear from you soon!
xx.

Halloween

Happy Halloween!
Tonight me and a my best friend are going trick or treating. Me and her have done it since 1st grade, so it's kind of our little tradition. Unfortunatley, there is no halloween-party in my friend zones (even if there were, I couldn't go because my grandfather's is having a birthday dinner.) I was thinking of hosting one myself, inviting all the girls in my new class, but it just didn't happen. Maybe because of my grandpa's dinner haha.
Anyway, I LOVE dressing up and doing my make up for halloween - I think it's the most fun part. I am going to be a "dead girl", like I have just been killed. And on my temple I'm going to have a bloody gunshot, with my hair a bit bloody as well. I wanted to have a white bloody shirt on, but that's what my friend is going to have so I'll just find something else.

Cheat meals

Yesterday I was in the mall with a friend, shopping for Halloween. Me and her always have fun together, like super fun, but yesterday it wasn't as fun as we usually have. I guess both were tired or something haha.
Anyway, we ate on an amazing Asian restaurant, were you could choose the base of the dish: meat, fish or chicken, noodles or rice, curry sauce, sweet chili or another sauce. I chose sashimi with noodles and curry sauce, super delicious (ofc you got a lot of greens with it)! And the thing is, I kind of follow a non-existent eating plan (lol that sounds weird.) It is simple: I eat as much whole grains as possible, no white sugar and a lot of greens and fruit. I stay away from fast carbohydrates, basically. Then I read at  a very inspiring health account on insta that the girl that writes on that instagram account eats one cheat meal per week. So, that was my cheat meal. But then, my best friend wanted to go and eat some FroYo, and who doesn't love that. I said yes, and I did take the sugar and fat free yogurt, with only fruit. But then, I got so much guilt-feelings. "I'm not healthy"  "I'm not going to get fit now" and things like that. Like eating-anxiety. Sometimes I get that, after I've eaten something unhealthy. And doesn't that sound really sad? Yes it does.
I have overthought it, because I want to have that cheat meal and NOT feel guilty. I am a quite healthy person I do resistant training three times a week, and cardio 3 times a week. I do eat healthy, almost 90% of the time.
I don't think it is possible to make it go away just poof and gone, but I think I can change my way of thinking a little bit and that will help. Also, I think I need to not be so hard on myself all the time, being more proud after working out and not think too much on that cheat meal. Today is arms-and abs day, and I really didn't feel like working out, but I did.
Now, afterwards (even though I had to go down on my knees halfway through the push-ups) I feel very proud. This is just the first week of this program, and I am going to get results if I stick to it.

Reward yourself more, and be proud of yourself♥

This picture feels very inspiring when you don't feel like working out. YOU have to go to the gym if you want to get stronger, tighter and fitter, NO ONE can do it but YOU! 

Relatives and Christmas. And Fashion.

So, in my family we always do 2-3 christmas'. On dad's side it's A LOT of family to remember, and my cousins there (two girls 1 and 5 years older than me) are kind of perfect. The oldest one works for Hollister which does explain how beautiful she is (and slim.) The other one is as gorgeous as the older one, so yeah. Myself, am not completely skinny, and I don't always fit in XS. I am completely fine with that - 99% of the time - but that last procent is when I am with them. I do have very fun with them, actually, and I love my family, but those two can make me unsure. Then, the older one, has a boyfriend that I am not very fond of. Haha. I guess it sounds like my dad's family is terrible, but they're not, I still love them. I just feel a bit misplaced and uncomfortable with them. Our family are sort of the "outsiders" in the Orlande family, and don't hang out - except when birthday and family parties happens. Like, all our relatives on dad's side lives in a city 15 minutes from here.
Then, there is the Dahl family, mom's family side. 70% of those relatives lives in the middle of nowhere up in north, but everyone is so nice and warm. Not saying that the Orlandes aren't but I just feel more like an "insider" at the Dahl-side. The rest of the Dahl family is my grandparents and my aunt, uncle and their kids. We hang out quite a lot (I were shopping with one of the cousins, she's 1 year older than me) and we're really close. I always have fun with them and feel as comfortable as I can with them. We could move into a big house together and we wouldn't be surprised how we acted or anything. Everyone always have an amazing time when we are together (at least once every week we are gathered.)
So, we always have one christmas, often 2 days before real christmas, with my cousins and grandparents on the Orlande side. Then, we celebrate with our friends and then real christmas this year will be with the Dahl's. I am looking forward to it very very very much, at least real xmas.

I always have something of a fashion disaster when it comes to picking clothes to the Orlande's (mostly because the two cousins always looks so perfect and I get a bit self conscious around them.)
Therefore, I have made an nice little outfit that I am going to try to get hold of, or something like it.

Sorry for the little square at the side..

Then I have started a new training program, that seems quite popular and very inspiring. So, from tomorrow I'll stick to it, for 12 weeks! Gaash, I am so exited! It seems fun, good and I am very sure that I will see changes, and hopefully feel better in my own skin. Review will come on it, but ya know, I have to try it first!

My Life Story

Hello all!
My name is Arlette, and I have been here for 13 years. I am a happy, thinking, loving, energetic girl in my own way. I love being with friends, and I love moving around a lot. This is going to be a sort of dairy, that the whole world can read. I live in a country (duuh) 45 min from the real city. I love shopping and fashion, and I have a lot of different periods, where I like a special food or a special type of clothing. Right now, I am obsessed with cottage cheese, for example.

I have just started a new school, which I like very much. I am quite an anxious person, but happy, so I worry quite a lot. I am trying this new thing, living in the now and don't look forward to even the next day. I think it is going good, and I feel great!
I had quite a hard time last october to this june, my confidence was at the bottom, and I felt fat and ugly. I gained a few pounds and I loved watching series (too much.)
In december this year I wanted to change that, but with the not-so-nice-school I was stuck in made it hard to change my way of thinking, and living. So, this summer when I had summer break before I was starting a new school, I decided to get healthy, workout and boost my confidence. I wasn't bullied or something, I just felt alone.
Today, I feel amazing, and I love my life. I have a lot of confidence and I am very proud over my self for getting up from the bad period of my life. I am the kind of person who thinks that everything happens for a reason, somehow it all makes sense. I don't believe in god, but in fate. I think that everyone's fate is to be happy. I think that you have to work to get want you want, no matter what it is. If you can dream it, you can do it, you just have to give it time.

That is my life story, and you will follow the next chapter from now! I will put up one post per day, fashion, health or life related.. Or something that crosses my mind.
See ya!